I can’t sleep. I don’t know what it is, but I just can’t sleep. There’s a discomfort in my right shoulder, my room feels stuffy, my body is exhausted and my mind is wandering. I keep thinking about things I need to improve in my life. Commitments and websites and goals and places to travel and things to throw away. Sketchbooks to finish and photos to paste and videos to record and files to upload and upcoming school projects. I want to hurry up and finish college. I want to travel the world already. I want to lose those 20 pounds. I want to perform again. I’m worrying about tax time and if I’ll have enough. I want to save money for the future but it seems impossible because of school and my spending habits. So much of my money goes into food, surprisingly enough. I want to compete in martial arts with confidence. I want a new barber, a good cheap one. I want to take my dog to the dog-park. I want to create my own business card. I want to redesign my website. I’ve been putting off so many things and I’m tired of it. I want the air-conditioning problem fixed in my room. I want to get rid of that stupid wart on my hand. I want to skate again. I want to get braces. I want to finally finish cleaning my room. I want to get rid of all these old textbooks already.
So if you’re wondering what’s bugging me, that’s it. I hope I can sleep peacefully now. I’m tired of being awake today. Goodnite.
It may sounds cliche, but every time I start to feel overwhelmed w/ life I just think of that verse in the Bible, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
Maybe it’s been “over-said” but there’s a lot of power in those words. And remember, you always make time for the things you want to make time for. So if you REALLY want to redesign your wb page or get rid of that wart or finish that sketchbook, then you will.
And don’t be in such a rush to finish college. “Stop and smell the roses.” This is such an awesome time in our lives. Frusterating, yes…but nonetheless a great time that should be appreciated. We’ll never be this young carefree again, so might as well enjoy it.
Sleep well, Daveed. And remember, you rock.
You seem like a pretty angry guy ;). Go listen to some music and relax. You got your whole life ahead of you – enjoy the moment and don’t rush things. Let God sort every thing out for you.
P.S. Your depressing entries make me depressed. Coincidence? I think not. Write something funny and you’ll feel happier. Trust me. If anything, give me a call. We gotta rep those chocobos :).
Thanks for the love.
I don’t know if I could write funny things now that I know someone is reading it. Oh the pressure! I’ll try though. What can I say, I’m a sucker for chocobos. Anything to make Fred Durst proud again.
a lot of my own worries stem from things i have to get rid of and organize, too, like in my own apartment. cory and i have gotten a good headstart, but i’m still feeling stressed. your entry inspired me to push myself to get most of this cleaning stuff done today, though! i hope you follow through soon too
baby steps!
It didn’t take long for me to take action. I’ve already started working on some of the listed tasks. I sold a textbook on half.com. I’ve begun to work out and eat healthier. I’ve been filling up my sketchbook with drawings and stuff from my clutterbox, where I collect all the neat photos and stickers and memories and gather them together. Feels good to accomplish this stuff. Let me know how you manage.