I know, I know

A few months ago, when all I had to do in my spare time was to read other people’s blogs, I remember being so frustrated with those who took long to update their site. A few of them I took out of my favorites list because of that reason. Sounds reasonable, no? Even when they warned that they would be away for a while?

I understand now what actual living is. I have a job, I go to school, I drive, I pay for my own stuff, I perform, I preach, I have family and friends, I have responsibilities. Lately, these things have been clearer than ever. The rule of thumb for me is this: The less I write on my site, the more genuinely satisfied I am. I know, I know. It sounds completely selfish, and perhaps it is. But there are so many things to take in account when writing in this baby. Number one is that actual words. I’ve always been better at speaking than I have at writing. The words just process easier, and there is far less explanation needed to get to a point, at least in consideration of the time used in getting the point across. Get what I mean? Hope so. I probably need an explanation for all that, but too bad, there’s more typing to be done. Number two is considering how I will affect other people. That gives me a bit of anxiety, and it is difficult not to think of this before writing, thus I become hesitant. Ok, enough explaining.

So here’s the update: I’ve been doing a lot of things and I couldn’t be happier. I had two stand-up comedy gigs this past weekend and it was quite an experience. Friday was my best performance ever and Saturday was my worst. One would assume that after Saturday’s performance I’d be a little hesitant in pursuing this love called Comedy, but they are wrong. It’s been interesting analyzing all the things that went into those two nights. There’s only one direction to go after Saturday, and that’s up. Want the details on why I failed? Over-confidence, pride, laziness, irresponsibility, and worst of all… fear. While I was on the stage, I didn’t realize I possesed all those charactersitics, but today it is as clear as daylight. These are areas I must work on if I want to avoid that same scenario.

Conclusion of the day… I plan on pursuing comedy as a full time job one day. Right now I have the balance of things I mentioned above to keep me busy, and perhaps they will evolve into bigger things in the next few months. Graphic design is still very much an option, and for the moment is my main source of income. My long term goal is to turn comedy into the income, and design into the hobby. If I am consistent in posting on the site, you will see how this happens. If not, then I fear I sketchism.com will be another website thrown into the recycle bins of all the people who seem to have an interest in my doings. Thanks for sticking around.